Horror fanatic and great deal of experience reviewing horror movies.
plus the keeping my own journal probably gives me an edge with the whole 'personal voice' and 'unreliable/biased narrator' style of writing.
so heres the teaser entry.....i thought it best to attach it here.
Im reduced to penning this in an old notepad, the ones those doctors get complimentary of the drug companies they kiss ass for. They took my journal away first. My singular tangible remainder of my father. Dad, if you can still hear me like before, then please , im so sorry. I miss the smell of the worn leather, no matter where I stashed it, it came out smelling just like him. But I suppose that’s what these people do, they take away your safe place first, under the guise of ‘helping’ you. I can write as much as I want now, that’s an upside, haha, but I did this to myself, I slipped up. I panicked. These vultures were prowling the skies around us for so long, they must have seen through my misstep as I was making it… nothing will take that away, its my own fault, and I can try to rewrite history to suit my self, to take the guilt away, but it’s the truth, and the truth wont change. No matter how crazy I get. I would be lucky if I truly was mad, id give any thing to go mad. My reality might be a manufactured hoax, but to mad person, it’s the realest thing there is. I would give anything for that. Lauren, I cant even begin to tell you the things they did to my body. Youre lucky you died quick. If only ...